Evolving

I recently posted this elsewhere. Now I thought I would share this here. In some ways, I feel relieved. I wasn't sure for the longest time that I wanted to take the steps I am now taking, but life is making it clear that it is time. The words that eluded me up until now flowed as I wrote the following.

As you read it, you will become clear about where I am these days. I am not clear about exactly what happens next, however if you are interested in staying in touch with me, you can contact me and we will see what we can do to arrange an on going connection. I have thought for a while that there may be some of you that I met this way who might want to be a part of what is next. If you are one of those, just email me and let me know. You can use the gift card address in the graphic in the right column to communicate.

Please know that NF prohibits me from taking current customers to a new platform, so if we were to connect in a way that was financial, that will still be the place to do it. The email is not a way for us to skirt my agreement with them.

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It is incredible to see how life sometimes has a mind of its own and takes us in unanticipated directions. I wasn't sure a year ago what I would be doing at this point, however, I am not entirely surprised by where I have wound up.

For some time now, I have debated about what to do regarding erotic hypnosis. I was never the type to pursue people, and given my gentle approach, many otften found themselves elsewhere. Good for them, if their choices made them truly happy.

When I first started being Isis, it was a role I played. Isis has always had parts of me in her, but "Isis" as a Domme was never truly who I was. I came to it as something fun and sensual, as something enjoyable for both me - and for the person I would hypnotize. I never imagined how twisted things could become. To say I got quite the education the last few years would be an understatement of significant proportion.

It has often been disheartening for me to watch some so caught up in the fetish that they lose sight of themselves. I find that so many people have so much to offer the world, and whatever that is can often be buried, sidelined or forgotten in the erotic hypnotic quest. I have often appreciated the fact that the role that I assumed allowed me to be helpful to those who were open to the help that I could offer. Some declined. Whatever the reaction, it was always respected, as I recognize that people are wherever they are for whatever reason they happen to be there.

Some I have spoken to have stretched my limits. I never went farther than I was comfortable, but now that I have been away from it for a while, my comfort level has rolled back significantly. I no longer want to play the role that many would like of me to the extent that I used to, any way. Even if there is a place some would want to be, I am uncomfortable being the one taking them there.

It may sound like I am judging what some do. The fact is that the only judgment I am making is the one that involves me. I am judging where *I* fit. I never really felt like I fit before, and now I don't feel like I fit at all. Add to that what is going on in my life at the moment and I don't have it in me to play at that level any more and I want to "play" at a dfferent level these days. I see how amazing life can be for those who are ready to go past a level of horniness, and it is an amazingly beautiful thing. It is my belief that the world needs people to be involved and engaged and I have seen way too many lost to the suggestions of others and lost to themselves. I wouldn't blanketedly say it was a "bad" thing, but many have come back to me and have told me that it was/is bad for them.

Given how I feel I do not see how I can continue as before. I could have just left and not said anything, but from what I hear there are those silent ones who care about me and what is going on with me. And despite the fact that I have said others could be in touch with me, many have chosen to remain silent, so there really isn't an easy way to let those who care know what is going on.

I have been gradually building to this point, and I suspect that my Isis Internet Tent will one day fold. The one thing that will stick around will be much of my outside blog because I am proud of what is there. I may go through and prune at some point or I may keep it as "historical record." I don't know which yet. I imagine in time I will know, though. However I will not be coming back to announce it. I have always found it odd when a hypnotist says she's having a "going out of business sale." Why would I encourage you to buy my recordings when I won't be around like that any more (which really is all the more reason for me to fold up things at some point)? I have always wanted you to be in touch with me if you wanted to appreciate my work. I always had an interactive model, and since part of that interaction will cease, the rest doesn't really work any more.

A part of me is sad. There was a lot of time and energy put into the myriad of things I have done. But, in some ways, it feels like a different person did them. And, actually, it was. The me of a year ago and before no longer exists. It is definitely time to move on. To those who have stuck by me, and have continued to be in touch, it will be "business as usual." To anyone else, thank you for the time that we spent. Thank you for allowing me into your mind and heart in such an open and intimate way. Thank you for your respect of me and my craft.

While I may be closing the door on Isis as she once was, I am not closing the door on the people who want to be in touch to say hi. And especially if anything I have said resonates for you and you would like to enhance yourself in a different way than the current offerings of those here, I invite you to be in touch.

I truly feel blessed by the many thousands of people I have spoken to over the years. I don't know that I would have had the opportunity to meet many of you if it wasn't for this fetish and environment. If I would have had one wish, I would have wished that we "met" under different circumstances as I believe there are many pieces of the dynamic that doesn't foster the best connections. However there are many types of relationships we have in life that serve different purposes and for what was, it was pretty awesome.

It feels like a good bye in some ways, and good byes often are melancholy for me. But it doesn't have to be one. If you want to be in touch in a "person to person" type of way, the next move is up to you. I wish everyone here all the best and that enjoyable times are what is most often had by all parties concerned.

Play (& Stay) Safe,
Isis

It Has Been a Long Time

It has been a long time. Almost a year since I posted here. I have thought occasionally about coming back and saying something, but was never really sure what to say.

I am still not sure. But it feels like the time is right.

A lot has changed in my life in the last year - most of which was not planned, nor intentionally created or desired. Sometimes life has a way of throwing curve balls, and if we're fortunate enough we know how to either catch them, or avoid being hit.

I used to wonder if I just "disappeared" one day if anyone would notice - or care. In the time that I have been Isis I have seen many people come and go who were hypnotists, and many who were those who liked to be hypnotized.

I have seen many things, many more than I ever thought I would, and many more than I would have liked to have seen. There have been many times I have been at odds with the "establishment," if not because of what I believed in terms of hypnosis and its effects, at odds with what people thought I should be.

It may seem odd to say this, but it has been wearing on me. It is difficult to be in the environment that I, as Isis, stepped into. Unlike many who seem to do the type of work I have done, I have never done it because I get of on controlling or manipulating anyone. To my dismay, I have seen instances where if I was a different type of person, I might have found myself sitting comfortably, living off of other people's money and efforts.

Instead, I have often opted for an approach of respect. I have opted to treat those who come to me as someone who deserves respect - even if for a while they want to choose to be in a lesser role. The key word here being "role." I have never wanted anyone to feel like they were forever tied to me - if that is not what they truly wanted. And even then, I approached the hypnosis responsibly, just in case anything unexpected would ever happen.  I would not want someone to have any problems due to anything that I had created with him.

As a result, many have found others to hypnotize them. If that makes them happy, so be it. I have never had the desire - nor the energy - to chase after anyone. I have also never really had the energy or desire to help someone who does not help himself. However I have spent more hours than you might imagine trying to help those who have gotten into situations they did not want to be in.

In what has happened in the last year, I have been able to step back and look at what I have been doing. And I question whether or not it is a good idea to continue. While I have done my best to live by my own rules, I am not sure the rules I have lived by still apply.

In the last year I have seen how life can just be taken away, just like that. It is nothing anyone anticipates or expects, and yet it is the path we all are on. Over the years, I have seen way too many people on tracks that aren't healthy or helpful for them. I have made it a rule never to judge someone for their choices, as we all have the paths we must tread, and the choices we must make. However it is not in me to contribute to that type of thing any more - even indirectly.

I have always believed that what I do needs to enhance someone's life,
but if not that, at the very least, not detract.

On the other side of this coin are those I interact with. Some are so sweet. So wonderful. So generous. They are the ones I have missed. They are the ones who have treated me with respect - without me having to demand it or even bring it up. They are the ones I never felt I had to tolerate.

In the time that I have been away, I have never said I was out of touch, and yet very few have reached out or tried to communicate with me. That is more than fine. But it is just an observation about the dynamic that I seem to have with those who have crossed my path. If I was more than a fix or a trance, then one would think that there might be some reaching out.

While I realize some may have stepped back to give me space, I think there are many more who have just not said anything because they haven't. And that makes me sad. While I realize I am not going to be the best of buddies with those who call me through a phone sex line, and that it isn't always going to be possible, or appropriate, I would like to think that I was/am more than "just" a voice on the phone.

It is possible some do care more than their actions have expressed. I wouldn't be surprised. Many times we do not tell the people who matter to us what we really feel about them. Do you know how many people in your life would love to hear from you how much you care about them, and what they mean to you? They may intellectually know, but that is not the same. There is something pretty special about hearing about who you are to someone and about what a difference you make for them.

Just today I was talking to someone who had a good friend who just passed away. The friend was diagnosed with a type of cancer than was not only terminal, but swift. The friend was dead within only a few weeks.

It just so happened we spoke right after the friend was diagnosed, and I shared some things with him in the hopes that it might help him and/or his friend. Situations like that are impossible, at best. Well, as it turns out, he took my advice and had an incredible conversation with his friend that I think was to both of their benefit. Today this person was thanking me for what I was able to do for him.

Whether or not I got feedback from him, and whether or not we spoke about it, I still would have done what I did. However knowing that what I did helped, was greatly appreciated. It just so happens this person is someone who knows me as Isis, and is still in contact with me because a part of him knows that I care about the person behind the trancer.

I personally desire a greater connection with those I interact with, and it is not something that I can fabricate, nor would I want to. I have always desired anyone who was interested in me, or doing something for me, want to do it first and foremost. At which point we could harness it and make it quite delicious.

I know some hypnotists will demand that those they hypnotize them tell them "I Love You." The person who says it doesn't want to, and doesn't really mean it, but it is all a part of the Power Game. If someone ever told me that he loved me, I would want it to be because he really did, and just wanted to.

All reasons, it would seem, this environment no longer suits me.

But that doesn't mean I am not into erotic hypnosis. There are a few who are still in touch with me, and they still get the hypnotist in me. But we have the kind of dynamic that really works for me. So am I through with erotic hypnosis? I can't say that. But I am not really sure what I can say.

If any of what I have said speaks to you, maybe we should talk. Maybe there is something we could create. But you can't be flaky, and you have to be clear about what you want, as we will compare notes and see if there is a fit. I do not have the time to be playing games, and I am being quite picky what I choose these days.

As always, I wish you well, and hope that you always have safe and enjoyable adventures.

Isis

"Skip the Orgasm"

Hey there :)  So glad to have your attention.  :P

I hope this finds you well.

I miss writing here on a regular basis, and
am wondering who might also be missing
my regular contributions.

Given what is going on in my life, there
are a number of things that are up in the
air.  At the same time, I have been doing
sessions with those who have the ability
to be flexible, and the desire to continue
with me.

So if that is you, and you have been
staying away or silent...you should get
in touch with me so we can see what
might be created.

At the same time, I should tell you that
I am looking at what is next.  As I don't
really know yet what that is, I can't tell
you.  At the same time, there is a turn in
the road that aligns with much of who I
am.  If you read my blog closely enough,
you are likely to have a hint of what that
could mean.

I am a great believer in what hypnosis
has to offer people.  At the same time,
I am saddened by what it can do in non-
productive ways, too.  I realize that
people need escapes, but what I am not
sure is that they always realize what they
are getting themselves into.

A temporary escape is one thing.  A
lifelong one is another.

I want to be able to work with people
who might be scared of erotic hypnosis
because of what they see from those who
are into it who are also dominant or
submissive.  There is a lot to enjoy
personally, or with a partner.

Just to be clear, this is in addition to those
I do work with, who consider themselves
submissive.  There is a lot of opportunity
with flexibility.  I believe that hypnosis
should never take away from who a person
is, but add to them.

I have never been one for humiliation or
degradation.  I have never been one to
be into pain (physical, or otherwise).
At the same time, life is about learning
and what better way than with contrasts?
(Which is to say that I am open to certain
types of things - depending on the person
and the circumstance.)

On top of everything, I do not consider
myself a Domme.  Rather, I play the role.
For some, that means they would rather
go elsewhere, and it is likely a good choice
on their part.

As for others, my gentle caring, leading
style that can be "dominant," or at the
very least controlling, can be the perfect
choice for a person looking to explore
without having to make a lifelong
commitment, or fearing the consequences
of their interest taking over their life.

I get how powerful pleasure can be.  I
get how wonderful the rush must be of
those wonderful hormones when those
buttons are pushed.  At the same time,
consider that there are other things in
your life that might be minimized or
affected by those diversions.

If you are OK with it, then it *might*
be OK.  I used to say if you were OK,
it was OK.  The problem can sometimes
be that one who is deeply affected can
not always see the forest for the trees.

From time to time it is likely a good
idea to get some perspective, to see
if where you are is where you want to
be headed.  I have known of people who
were not happy with where they were
hypnotically tell me how happy they
were about where they were hypnotically
before they were able to clearly see what
was going on.  The pleasure they felt,
and the suggestions they were given
were driving their "ship," and they
didn't even realize how affected they
were by what another said and wanted.

In some ways, I am a broken record on
this, and for those who don't appreciate
it, I am sorry.  But it is something that
I have seen way too many times.  I have
seen really good people get lost in the
pleasure so much that their relationships
lose out.  I have seen them distracted
from the things that matter most to them.
I have seen them lose sight of themselves,
and what they have to offer the world.

Of course what happens starts out as
your choice...which is why I always
say be careful.  But after choice sometimes
comes things that may look like your
choice, but actually be someone else's
choice for you.

Interestingly, one way that people use
to gain control, interest, desire of
another is through another is orgasm
control.  I saw something today that
explains why it can work.  You can
read it/see it here.

Sometimes knowing what is happening,
or what can happen, can be beneficial.
So many have no idea the power of those
things that look seemingly insignificant.

As always, I hope you are well and safe,
and that if what I say speaks to you, you
stay in touch.

Have a great day.

It has been a while...

Greetings.

I hope this finds you well.

It has been a while, and I know there may be a few of you
who are wondering what is going on.  While I am not yet
ready to share, I thought I would clarify something about
what you might expect from me during this time.

I would say there is nothing that you can "expect," except
perhaps the unexpected.  That is one reason why I haven't
been taking any live calls outside of the ones that are arranged
ahead of time.  Due to the nature of what is going on, I need
to have a good relationship with those that I have
communication with.

At the moment I am not fully able to be the role of Goddess
that you would want.  As a matter of fact, I am that for only
a few at the moment.  However I have decided that if there
is anyone who is reading this who isn't happy with their
erotic, hypnotic situation and wants to change it, I will do
my best to help you find a situation you want to be in.  It
does not mean me becoming your Domme, but you finding
your personal way and clarity around what you want and
who you are.

I have found that too many find themselves confused once
one or more hypnotic Dommes get into their head.   This
is something that I have addressed more than once, and in
varying ways.  Many times those affected will justify their
actions based on suggestions given - if they even remember
what they did.

I always think that it is best to be able to talk to the person
who is hypnotizing you, and see if they will work with you,
but the "problem" sometimes is that they will think you want
to be twisted.  Other times they just might be twisted enough
themselves not to care about you want (it is after all for some
the "nature of the game.").    However having said that, if
you are up for it, that might be something to consider before
doing anything else.  It is a judgment call on your behalf, and
you have to have trust in the person you speak with that they
will be willing to listen - and do - what you ask them to do.

There have been those I have helped who were at one
moment totally enamored by someone one moment, and then
the next in a "what was I thinking?" place.  The more that
you wonder about and the more that you question things
and the more concerned you are - the more you should be
paying attention to these things.  Issues that you are
potentially steamrolling are seldom resolved successfully.

Yes.  I know you likely feel good.  The hypnosis is
designed to do that.  But it doesn't mean that you can't
feel good without causing yourself other issues.  There are
other options.

I may not currently be able to be that person you are
obsessed with and can call and think about all of the time
right now...but that doesn't mean you can't get something
pretty wonderful by giving yourself freedom around what
you want, and the clarity to get it.

If you do not currently have some version of what you
want without conflict or feeling at odds with yourself or
your situation, odds are you may never find it.  It is very
rare the two roads will ever cross.

If this speaks to you, get in contact with me.  You can
reach me on Niteflirt, or you can email me at IsisWantsYou
at my Yahoo address if you aren't on Niteflirt.  I will see
what I  can do.  Please be patient, though, and if you do
not hear from me in a few days, feel free to email me again.
I WILL respond.  It just may take me longer than we both
would like.

Thanks for your patience and understanding.

I realize that this won't be for everyone, but I DO know
that it fits a number of those who will be reading this.
If I hadn't already spoken to a number of those like you,
I would never have written this.

Please be well...and play and stay safe!

An Update (of sorts)

There was a time that I wondered if I suddenly disappeared,
if anyone would notice.  Try as I may to show myself as
more than "just" someone you can get off with, it
would seem a majority of those I interact with are looking
for the quick "fix."

I can't say I blame those who want this, as most that I make
contact with are through a phone sex site, after all.  However,
I have consistently tried to show you more, and hope that the
parts of you that are more than just your cock respond.

I know some of you think that when I get quiet, I may want
to be left alone, and your lack of saying anything is a type of
respect for me.  At the same time, I have often said otherwise,
and am never sure how to convey things, except to say them.

There is more to me, as I expect that there is more to you.
I realize this is not the best forum for that to be expressed,
acknowledged, or acted upon, but the fact is that I have always
tried to remain true to myself as it gives the both of us the 
best possible experience.  That is why I never do things that
I perceive might be of more harm than good to you.  

My life took a turn recently.  The destination of the curve is
one that I do not yet know.  The irony is that in life we often
may think we know where we are headed, but often we are
surprised.  There is so much that is unknown...and yet we
play and act like we DO know.

I would like to think that there are those of you who I have
truly connected with.   I would like to think that no matter what
happens, you are interested in where I go and what I do next.
I would like to think we connected in more than just one way,
so I very much would like to think that.

At the same time, I realize that there are those of you who are
wanting something from me that you can't currently have, and
for that reason you will likely go (or already have gone) elsewhere. 
If that is the case, I wish you well.  I will, as always, tell you 
to stay safe.  

Read my blog.  Educate yourself.  Be careful.  There has been
a lot of shit I have seen over the years, and believe me when I
say you do NOT want to be a part of anything like what I have
been a witness to - even if your fantasy thinks it does.

Now...For anyone who is interested in sticking around -
and especially for those who care about and respect me...

Recent events are NOT ones that I have chosen.  As a result,
they are leaving me in an uncomfortable position in more than
one way.  For the few that I have told what is going on, they
have wanted to help financially.  I realize that if you don't know
what is going on, you may be uncertain as to whether you
want to help, or not.  It is completely understandable.  If you
would like to know, just email me and we will schedule some
time to talk, and I'll even send you some free minutes to do that
- provided you are on NF.

I have always wanted to really relate to those that I connect
with here, and this is a chance for us to potentially do that.
As far as calls and cams go, for now they are hit or miss.
If you can catch me and/or schedule with me, we can do a
session.  However, at the moment, I will tell you it is likely
to be a slim chance that it will happen.

In time, I will be explaining all.  If you are truly interested in
me, you will discover what has happened.  You will also learn
more about me.  This abrupt turn has turned things on their
head, and I am fairly certain my life will never be the same.
I know; it sounds so dramatic.  Well...in some ways, it IS.

I think this will be all for now...

Except if you want to be a good boy for me.  I am always
grateful for your clicks and your efforts, however, during this
time it is even MORE so.  If you would like to help, please
either click a button below, or send a payment of your choosing.
Want something for your money?  You can always choose to
buy a file. 

As always, thanks for being a part of my world.
Isis

Unexpected

I am writing this on Monday, as I do not yet know
what the week will bring.  If you see this, I have
had an unexpected situation arise (I know - how
can it be unexpected, when I plan for it?  I will
try to explain at a later time).

While I have been kind of quiet lately, I have been

out of touch the last few days because of circumstances

that have been beyond my ability to control, and I am

hoping to return shortly.

I am writing this because unexpected time off/away

isn't always a good thing, and I thought that those 

who support me would want to know that this is a
particularly good time to do something to please me.

While just tributes are always welcome/helpful, I
thought perhaps I would highlight my
Handled withPleasure Video.  You can get it here for $25.  

Of course, you could also contribute in another way

by buying any of my other files.

I don't often do things like this, and am never one
to demand (despite those of you who wish I would

be more so :p) because I believe it is much better for

both of us if you do what you do because you WANT

to do it.

As always, please know that I appreciate your efforts,

small and big, if you are doing what is right for you
and what you can.  I especially appreciate them now,

with the recent, unexpected events.

It will all be helpful.
And when you see me available, call!
I want to hear from you.

Be well, and be safe,

Isis

Some Humor

Lately life has gotten a bit on the serious side,
so I thought I would share a couple of smiles:

"Had a big mix-up at the store today.
Apparently when the woman said,
'strip down facing me,' she was
referring to my credit card."

"All guys hate the words DON'T and
STOP - unless you put them together."

Have a good night, and please feel free
to make a humorous addition below.

Sweet dreams.

Would like to be Wrong

Sometimes I think I am the only person in a boat
that is sailing in a certain direction.  So often
when I talk about the things that happen to people,
it is met with a certain amount of skepticism and
disbelief.  Apparently everyone knows better than
I do about what I think I "know."

I realize that there is a certain amount of "game
playing"when it comes to the fetish and the
players, but the problem is that there are either
some really good actors, or there really is a certain
amount of sh*t that happens to those who are
unaware.

I wrote a blog entry about someone who had been
hypnotized by someone and was headed down a
path that he did NOT want.  It wasn't like he came
to me to help him, but once he was hypnotized, it
was apparent that there had been things happening
that were NOT what he wanted.

I knew of the hypnotist involved, but knowing
that some think highly of her, I thought let me
check into her some.  When I did, I found something
that said she had a de-programming recording,
and that she would utilize it if she - or the person
she worked with - thought it was necessary.

I reconsidered my stance.  Perhaps I had been
unfair in my assessment.  Perhaps she really was
one of the "good guys" in this fetish.  So the
next time I spoke with the individual I was trying
to help, I asked how he felt about speaking with
her directly about what was happening and his
desires to stop things, and mentioned the recording.

He said he knew of no such recording.  In
addition, he had asked her more than once to
turn things off, and her response was to trigger
him and off and running he was even more.
He indicated concern about ever having any
additional contact with her.

Once again, my wheels turned.  Either the
hypnotist had misrepresented herself, or she
had changed.  Neither thing to me was - or is -
particularly appealing.

Well...to make matters now more interesting,
out of the blue I get a message from the individual
who tells me he spoke with her (based on our
conversations, NOT something he would have
initiated) and not only that, missed a day of work
so he could have 2 cam sessions with her, and
soon a 3rd, so she could make everything right.

Yeah.  Likely HER version of right.  He even
signed one of the repetitive, robotic responses
to my emails in a way that tells me she again
has him heading off in a direction that he had
no desire to go in.

The way he worded things it is fairly clear to
me that he is being "fixed" so that he will never
do this again.  While I want to give this person
the benefit of the doubt, given the tone and tenor
of conversations I had with the person involved,
I am fairly confident she is doing things that
fall in the range of "against his will."

People are NOT pawns to be played with.  I
realize in this fetish many people get power
off of their power plays...but doing cr*p like
this to someone is just despicable beyond
words.

I do not intend to name names.  After all, there
is more than one side to every story, and there
may be details that I do not know, and may
never know.  But what I do know are certain
characteristics and certain signs that mean
certain things.  And while he may tell me that
she has removed all programming, my guess
it is any other than hers.

If I am indeed in this boat alone, I may just
go down alone.  At the same time, it is my
hope that my words and the things I say have
value and provide a wake up call for people
who need it, or give a protective barrier for
those who didn't even know they needed one.

Others in this "profession" do not talk about
this, but I can't help but wonder if there are
things they have seen and just blinked and
perhaps kept going - or perhaps believe it to
be a non-problem, given the current culture.

I know no one wants to hear about them...
but given a choice between hearing and being
a person who is greatly (and perhaps adversely)
affected, believe me, you are likely to want to
be a person who listened.

By the way, one side note about deprogramming
recordings.  They may not do what they say,
if you even know/remember that they exist,
and you have to know that there is a problem
to want to deprogram to listen.

Apparently this guy was a hybrid.  He knew
some things were too much, and wanted to stop,
but he didn't even know about the more potentially
harmful things; so even if everything else
was fine and dandy, he wouldn't have known
that there was any reason to request the
recording to stop.

There was a time I would never have even
considered posting something like this.  There
is a myriad of reasons for that, but with seeing
so much of what I have seen lately, I feel I
cannot be silent.  Part of the problem that
the world faces in many ways today is too
much silent agreement.  There is even a term
for that "Sheeple."

I can not possibly take a stand in every regard
that I see a problem, but this is one that seems
best suited to me at this time.  I never want 
someone to rob you of who you are.  Whether
or not you choose to listen to, or believe, me I
invite you to consider standing up for something
you believe in with a PASSION.

It would be my hope that as a result the world
will be a better place, and someone, somewhere
will be better off for it. 

Have a good night.

Flashing Yellow: Proceed with Caution

So many times I take to my blog and talk about
being careful.  I am sure that there are some who
would wish that I wasn't always talking about
the things I do.

Quite frankly, I am one of them.

The problem is, I believe that there are way too
many people who have no idea what is possible
with hypnosis.  Some of the things are probably
not such "big" deals, but there are many that
can easily become one...especially when the
person affected has no clue that he is affected.

Recently someone casually called me and
wanted to experience my hypnosis.  It turns
out that there was someone else who had been
hypnotizing him.  That much he knew, but what
he didn't know was what was affecting him,
what the content of the recordings he was
listening to was, just how deeply affected by
this person he was...even to the point of
publicly embarrassing and humiliating him
in front of those he knew.

Of particular note is the fact that this person
never once told the hypnotist that he had
certain interests/desires, and yet he was
instructed to buy what could amount to life
changing MP3s.

I know for some they may wonder how this
could happen, and this person could join their
ranks.  There were things he did not know
about hypnosis when he ventured into the
waters, and likely thought it would be "fun."

Sadly, the hypnotist had other ideas.  I know
there are hypnotists that believe the adage that
a person will never do anything against their
will, but in this case, he did at some point try
to fight what was happening.

I am not clear on all of the details, but what I
am clear about is that the hypnotists you let
into your mind will potentially have their own
agenda, and if you get to the point that you
OBEY that person, then that, among other
things, is your WILL, and whatever you are
told to do, you likely will.

I am a little hesitant to suggest that if a hypnotist
is into something you aren't into, you may want
to stay away, as I do have a feminization listing,
and I know most would not be interested.

At the same time, I do not promote it, and will
ONLY do it on that line, and by request.

The particular hypnotist in question doesn't
come out and say that those who follow her
will be taken down the path this guy was, but
I somehow suspect many are.  I also know of
someone I spoke to at one point who was
hypnotized by this particular hypnotist, and
was quite troubled.

I never got to the core of the other situation,
but if he was or is going through anything
like this other person just did, I could see
why there would be such great distress.

I also know there are those who have been in
this situation and wind up being mad at
themselves.  How could it have happened?

If you never knew you had a food allergy,
but then ate something that gave you an
allergic reaction, would you be mad at
yourself?  If this is you, be kind to yourself,
and take the knowledge you now have and
use it to your benefit, and better still,  perhaps
to someone else's benefit.

And if you happen to be one of those most
skeptical, use this as a warning sign of things
that could possibly be ahead and proceed
with caution.
 

Maybe you didn't realize...

In recent conversations with those who call me,
I have been told that they are listening to my
recordings at times that truly aren't suited for
listening.

These times aren't suitable because of reasons
that apparently weren't obvious.  For that
reason, I wanted to talk about it more publicly.

At Work
So you want to listen to my recording in the
background as you work?

If the recording was designed for that, it would
be one thing.  However, if it was not (and none
of mine currently are) then a couple of things
can happen.

1.  Your mind doesn't relax as much as it can,
because it can't.  The next time you listen to
it you may not go as deeply because while
listening at work, you told it it was OK to
stay awake while listening.

2.  You might go into a trance.  Perhaps not a
deep one, but one none-the-less.  When your
mind is more open, it is more open to anything.
You could walk around in a more suggestible
state if a recording puts you there, and you do
not realize it.  (The same, by the way, holds
true if you are in mid-session and hang up the
phone.  If you do not fully come out of trance
you may be putting yourself in a less than
ideal situation).

3.  If a MP3 isn't designed to help you focus
on work, it might make you less effective.
Perhaps it is something to consider if you are
wanting to do a good job, at the job that
allows you to pay for my recordings/sessions.

In the Hot Tub
Ah....the hot tub.  It sounds like the perfect,
soothing combination, doesn't it?  Well, it's
not, not really.

Think about it.  You want to relax.  You listen
to a wonderful recording that makes you relax.
A part of your mind is probably going to be
on guard.  After all, you are in a hot tub.  What
if you were to get submerged?  How much could
you truly and completely relaxed with a part of
you being hypervigilant that way?

And...if by some chance, you were able to
completely relax, it might be a dangerous
situation to put yourself into.  Some deeply
hypnotized people can't feel changes in
temperature, and not to mention being
submerged in water is not necessarily going
to be a good thing.  Yes; you would likely
wake up if that was to happen, but why
take the chance?

While Driving
I know someone once who was so high strung
he could listen to me on a CD to bring him within
the "normal" range of someone else.  While I
didn't recommend he listen while driving, he
apparently thought otherwise.

Driving is something that is best done fully
aware.  Listening to a recording while driving
is possibly going to make you less than fully
aware.  In addition, you run the same risk as
#1 under the Work heading above.

Listening in the car at any time while in the
driver's seat is also not particularly advisable.
You never want to have your mind associate
the hypnotic state with driving.  When you
sit in the driver's seat, you want to associate
it with all of the things that have to do with
a safe driving experience.  (Interestingly,
pulling over and going to sleep in that seat
also is not necessarily the best option for
these reasons).

So these are less than ideal situations for
trancing.  One thing you might want to
consider is always trancing in an IDEAL
environment, especially if you are wanting
to enhance your trancing experience.

What ideal is might vary from person to
person, but some of the things you may
want to consider for your ideal environment
are:

consistency
comfortable temperature and/or cover
safe surface
preferred lighting
preferred environmental sounds
unlikely to be interrupted

Please consider these things when considering
your trancing habits.  The more consistent you
are, the more likely the things you do will even
set the stage for hypnosis, and even become
hypnotic themselves.

I want my good boys to stay safe, and even if
you aren't my good boy
(yet? LOL sorry couldn't resist :P)
I would like
for you to remain safe, too.

As discussed before,
ignorance is not
always bliss.

Please feel free to add your few cents,  and
have an awesome day!
 

Me, Scary?

From time to time I find out that people are scared
to call/make contact with me for various reasons.

Sometimes they think I will be mad about something.

Sometimes they think they have disappointed me.

Sometimes they think I am a certain way or will
react a certain way that is NOT me.

I do the best I can to put myself "out there" in a
way that will ring true.  Not as an act or facade,
but in a way that is genuine.

I don't always know where these ideas come from,
but they do not align with who and how I am.  Rest
assured that with me what you see is what you get.

Of course, for some that will mean good bye, as
there are those who want me to be more like "the
others."  The thing is, though, I am more than likely
very little like the others who do this kind of work.

I am not dominant in nature, however I can enjoy
playing that "role."  I respect those I speak with, and
tend to stay away from things that would purposely
intend to humilate or embarrass you.

I want you to have a good experience, one without
issues that certain other types of experiences might
create.  While I realize that some want to feel gullt
and shame, and even sometimes thrive on it, it
would never be my desire nor my intention to create
that kind of dynamic between us.

As far as I am concerned, our dynamic is only as
good and strong as your desire to be in it, and if
how I am doesn't work for you, you will always
have my respect and my support in terms of you
making other choices.  While it might be within
my "power" to try to coerce you otherwise, it is
not ever something I would do - unless it was
something a person wanted.  Even then, it would
most likely occur in a way that had nothing to do
with being forced.

I want those I affect to talk to me.  I want you to
tell me what you feel and what you think.  In
return we will take that information together and
create something that works for both of us, or
you will be on your way. 

Having said this...I also want to address the
recording that I released that suggests that you
do something for me every day.  I suggest that
as a way for you to get pleasure, as well as thank
me for the pleasure that you do get when we are
apart.  

In no way are you obligated to do anything, and
I even give you an out, if it is not something that
you would think in your best interest.  At the
same time, perhaps if you got to know me, and
were clearer about me and my intentions, you
would find that it could be a wonderful thing to
make a part of your day.  I also talk about us
being a "team" and I mean it.  I want you to get
something from everything that you do for me,
and want our interactions to only bring the best
for you.

If you ever do something, and it is something you
want to stop, and can't seem to, I am more than
happy to turn the suggestions off.  As a matter of
fact, I even have a recording that will do that...
but because it has been designed for those who
have been hypnotized "live" by me, it probably
wouldn't be as effective for someone who has
only listened to recordings.

However, I would still do whatever I could to
help you be however you wanted to be.  It is
important to me that you be taken care of. 
 
I have never appreciated the culture within erotic
hypnosis that seems to leave people hanging
out there, sinking or swimming on their own.

I have always valued the dynamic of interaction.
It is one of the reasons many of my recordings
have been designed to work primarily for those
previously in contact with me.

I invite you to get to know me better.  I invite
you to get to know me as more than "just" a
hypnotist.  There is much more to me, and for
those I really click with, that often only solidifies
the dynamic between us.

If I am not for you, I understand.  I am not for
everyone.  However, you may not yet even know
how much I can be for you...if you do not know
me that well, and think you know me by any
preconceived notions from labels I may seem to
wear.

If you haven't yet spent time here on my blog,
I invite you to.  There is a lot here, and you
will find all kinds of things to whet your appetite. 
I also invite you to check with me about the things
that prevent you from being in contact.  If it
relates to me, odds are pretty good you might
just be wrong.  

And there is nothing worse than acting on
something with wrong information, is there?


Have a great weekend!
 

More Life Changing Than I Thought

A while ago I posted about how I was beginning to
pay more attention to the foods I ate. I was just
beginning to discover the train wreck of ingredients
we put in food.

Part of my reasoning behind it was to get healthier.
If I lost a few pounds, it would be a great thing, but
I just wanted to do what was best for my body. I
didn't say it at the time, but I suspected I was at the
very least "gluten sensitive," given how my body
was reacting to things that were "bready" and
delicious.

I thought I would do what I could to begin to look
at gluten-free options. The "funny" thing was that
just because something was gluten-free did not
mean it was healthy. Many gluten-free products
had ingredients in them that I have come discover
are not healthy ones.

In addition, to compensate for the fact that there
is no gluten there is an ingredient that is used that
is a chemical, which it appears is also not so great
for you. Apparently there are a few, but all pretty
much with the same "review." In addition, it turns
out that it often creates the same reaction in a
person's body as gluten.

This was determined, by the way, after I plunged
into getting a whole bunch of things to try my hand
at gluten-free baking. It was also after I had a
whole bunch of things in my cabinet I determined
I was no longer going to eat.

In my discovery I decided to start eating gluten again.
I figured it was at least "natural" and not a chemical.
Interestingly, the weight I was losing leveled off. In
addition, it would now seem that if I was "sensitive"
before, I am REALLY sensitive now.

I did not realize that by stopping eating it I would
make matters worse. Apparently that is exactly what
can happen. So now I am really in a pickle.

Why?

Because for as much as I was so excited about making
changes, I tried to level off, but couldn't. It seems to me
I might have been smarter to do some deeper research
before being so enthusiastic.

At the same time, it seems that those who have the
sensitivity can also be/become lactose intolerant, and
can have much bigger health issues down the line. It
also seems that if the gluten issue gets resolved, so
does the dairy one. At least that is what one person
described, as a part of her journey.

Since this all started out as a way to get healthier, it
would seem that this is a good thing in the long run.
In the short run I am REALLY bummed. I really wasn't
wanting/ready to give up everything bread. It seems
my choices may have sped that up.

I share this for a number of reasons:

One, those of you who have issues like this might
find it helpful/of interest.

Two, when I think about all of the foods that will
now affect me and make me miserable and/or sick
I think about how society is really good at creating
itself around what we do around food.

I think about how we "reward" ourselves with things
that really aren't so great for us. I think about the
"hypnosis" that exists around these things, and I find
myself wondering how I will rewire myself in ways
that will likely seem odd and unusual to others, as
we often use food to "fit in."

Three, I find that my experience with this is similar
to how some approach hypnosis. They do a minimal
amount of research (if any) and proceed to act. As
they experience and research things, they may alter
their path, perhaps going from one perceived negative
thing to another, not realizing that it is "negative" at
the time though.

If they are lucky, they will come out of everything
just fine, and unscathed. If they aren't so lucky, their
"diet" may get fixed in ways they weren't prepared for,
and aren't so happy about. 

Often our choices in life have a way of changing us -
without, or without, our permission.  Please feel free
to comment if you have any of your own thoughts/
experiences to share.

Have a great night.
 

Please Read | An Important Word

It would seem that some are feeling affected by me,
and my recent emails.

While, for some, that could be a good thing, the only
way it truly is, is if YOU feel that way.

If you are uncomfortable in any way with what you
feel as a result of me or my work, please talk to me.

While some hypnotists wouldn't regard your dilemma
or concerns as issues, I am different. I only enjoy
what I do, when you enjoy what I do.

I mean this in all seriousness, which is why I have
recommended you get to know me via my blog. I
have a reputation for being too nice and caring.

I do what I do with a great fondness and responsibility,
and care about you, what you think, and your your
ultimate experience with me and hypnosis.

Isis
 

"Trippy Website"

Recently Guest721 wrote:

"This is a very trippy website.
I'm both enjoying it and a
little freaked out by it."

Guess, Guest721, my last blog
entry isn't going to help you
too much to be less freaked.

I am sorry to freak you out a
bit. However I would rather
freak you out a enough to have
you thoughtful about your
choices than to act like nothing
awry ever happens and have you
playing with a "gun" that you
didn't know was loaded.

I want you to have the BEST
possible experience if you
choose to indulge in hypnosis,
and having knowledge will
hopefully help the odds of that
happening.

Be safe...and STAY that way.
 

Really Sad Tonight

For as many times as I warn people about what can
happen when one indulges in hypnosis, people do
not always listen.

There was someone who I was erotically hypnotizing
who had been hypnotized, it turns out, by many more
than he realized. One day, after me warning him
to be careful on more than one occasion he decides
to go browsing the internet.

He finds an online hypnotist who ultimately does
some very heavy duty hypnosis on him, and has him
masturbating on cam, naked. However, he doesn't
remember any of it, and fights me when I tell him
things are off/not right.

I spent countless hours trying to help him sort
things out, only to have him turn around and tell
me that he doesn't want to take advantage of me,
since he isn't paying me. He says he wants to go
to a professional hypnotist, and once he sorts
things out he will be back, and make things right.

Out of respect for him, I agree. I am a little
bit reluctant, as there was another instance of
someone who needed help in which I suggested a
professional hypnotist in which the hypnotist
tried to have him believe that I was the one who
had given him the problems he had.

It probably does not come as a surprise I wasn't
terribly happy about that, either. I had spent
my time and energy trying to help someone, and
the "professional" tries to lay the blame on the
person looking to help. Eventually that situation
was rectified, but it was troubling to me then.

And even more troubling to me in light of the
recent events in regard to another "professional"
hypnotist. These are not the only times I have
heard of the "professionals" being less than
ethical with what their choices are. Actually
the first one may have been seeking to be ethical,
however there seemed to be a bias that they were
working toward in terms of how they interacted
in regard to me. Perhaps not a question of ethics,
but rather a question of bias that may not be
appropriate in a setting like that.

I really would like to be objective here. I
would really like to give people the benefit of
the doubt. There are erotic hypnotists who do
things that haven't been good for someone, and
I would like to give them the benefit of the
doubt that it was not intentional.

I would like to do all of these things. But
sometimes my humanity and anger kick in. I wish
I was as naive about things as the day I began
this journey. It would be so much easier.

Instead, I feel like I am fighting the tide.
Many of the stories I could tell you would sound
like an erotic tale that would be a turn on for
many. The problem is that I think it is more
the IDEA of the situation that is the turn on,
and that if those turned on by the "tale" were
to have lived the events, they would be just as
mortified by the results of what happened.

In this particular, and most recent, case the
hypnotist was highly recommended and credentialed.
She is even LICENSED. Now you can not be
licensed for hypnosis, there is no such thing.
However she is a licensed mental health professional
who went waaaaayyyy out of her ethics and scope
in regard to this person.

Of course there will be some that will question
the validity of anything I say, and I of course
was not there. But where I was in relation to
the individual I was trying to help was as a
witness to how he felt about what had transpired.
He was really upset and confused and hurt.

Whether or not she has done what I think she did,
she has most certainly done something inappropriate,
and now I am not even able to speak to this person,
even though he was very anxious to speak with me,
but unable to because of work, before he went
silent.

Given how he has said he felt about me, and how
he has interacted with me, I have every reason
to believe that he is in big trouble. And this
time I don't think there is anything more I can do.

I can only hope that something will happen one
day in which he will be able to become aware and
do something before it really is too late for him.

Believe what you will about what I have written,
but also believe me when I tell you that when
you get yourself into the hypnotic rabbit hole
you really don't know what is going to happen.

Sadly, while there would have been a time I
would have recommended a "professional" hypnotist
for someone's more local/immediate needs, the
fact is now I am even more hesitant. I was
hesitant before because of any perceived bias
of me (which I overlooked for the sake of the
individual), but now I see first hand how
despicable anyone can be. Not that I didn't
know that before, after all, you hear the
stories, but now I have first hand confirmation
of atrocious behavior.

The fact is this person became more than "just"
a caller. In a weird way we had in some way
become a type of friend. So not only has she
robbed me of a "customer" (who barely even was
paying me anything as it was) she has robbed me
of contact with someone I came to care about.

So listen, or don't listen. Do, or don't do.
It is up to you. However, perhaps my words
will give you something to consider before you
do anything that might take you down a path
undesired.

I hate talking like this. Hypnosis is a
wonderful tool for issues and for lots of
pleasure. I don't like to scare people off.
But the irony is for as much as I do say these
things people still go forward. I think it is
the "it will never happen to me" syndrome. For
as much as this recent guy had been through,
for as many warnings as I gave him, for as
suggestible as he was...he didn't listen, and
now sadly he is going to have to live with the
consequences.

It may never happen to you. But how will you
know until perhaps it is too late? And then,
whattcha gonna do?

If you're going to indulge, please indulge
wisely. You may not be in the same category
as this guy - in fact, we may never have even
spoken yet - but I guarantee you that if I knew
someone was f*cking with you I would be just as
pissed.

Ok. I am done now.
 

Mythbusters & Hypnosis: My Take | Video

I saw this Mythbuster Episode a while ago, and
have wanted to address it. It is an episode
about how hypnosis can't have you do anything
against your will. According to what they show,
they believe it proves that the statement is
"true."

Things like this trouble me because the validity
they give to the claim I believe gives people a
false sense of security. First of all, the
examples they give are one-offs. One attempt is
made, and it doesn't work. Second of all, those
that they do the hypnosis with are not necessarily
the "best" of all possible subjects. Third of
all, the suggestions are almost silly, and worded
in a no-nonsense, direct kind of way.

If someone was "likely" to do something against
his will, given a hypnotic suggestion, there are
variables that might give a different outcome.
First it would likely be more than one session,
maybe even many. Secondly, as all subjects are
not created equal, if a hypnotist had a deeply
suggestible subject, the odds of accepting a
suggestion plainly, or otherwise suggested, is
greater than one who is not. Third, give a
suggestion in a way that allows the mind to
accept it by it appearing to be something other
than it is will likely allow for greater acceptance.
In addition, there will be ways to make it difficult
not to have the person follow through. An ethical
hypnotist is not likely to do something like that,
(there are exceptions - for instance, when you ask
for/desire it by your own accord) therefore it
is not a true sampling of what would or would
not seem to be possible. Plus, if you were to
make it rewarding in some way for the person to
follow through it would also tend to skew the
possible end result.

Believe me when I tell you there are ways to
skew things when you are in trance. While it
may be "technically" true that you won't do
anything against your will, there are many ways
that things can be contorted and distorted...
and the only benefit there will be will be for
the other person.

If interested, view the episode for yourself,
and let me know what you think.

(You may also want to read this blog entry.)

Hypnosis and Weight Loss | Video

There was a time in my life that a relative of mine had lost
weight, and she had used hypnosis to do it. As a result,
long before I was ever a hypnotist, I got to experience
weight loss as a result of hypnotic suggestion.

The problem was, though, once I stopped the hypnosis, the
weight came back. What I now know as a hypnotist is that
when our unconscious has a plan, it seeks to fulfill it,
even if the actions are to our detriment. It is not that
we are seeking to hurt ourselves, it is quite the opposite.
We are seeking to give ourselves the familiarity that we
"need."

For instance, if food provides some sort of comfort, we
will seek it out when we need to be comforted. We can
change our habits - with or without hypnosis - but if we
do not change the piece of us that has a need that it
sees our old habit fulfilling, odds are we may at some
point find ourselves in the same predicament in the same,
or similar way.

I am reminded of this today because of a couple of news
items. You may remember Carnie Wilson had had gastric
bypass surgery several years ago. She lost so much weight,
she even posed for Playboy. After having two children she
gained much of her weight back, and is now wearing a band
and losing weight.

The other news item is about gastric bypass, hypnotic
style. People under hypnosis are given suggestions that
they are having the surgery. The news story shows two
women for whom this approach appears to be working. The
doctor in the story is skeptical about what hypnosis can
do.

Interestingly, I would say that if someone is suggestible
enough to lose weight via this method, s/he may have a
better chance of keeping it off, given that hypnosis is
working with changing what the mind believes unconsciously,
which the surgery (obviously) does not. Stories like
Carney's are "proof" that while it can work, there are
ways that it can also fail. Might it be due to the
unconscious mind?

Of course I wouldn't say that it is. However, it is an
important component, given that there are estimates that
90% of what we do is driven by our unconscious. So while
it may not be able to be determined to be everything, it
certainly is unlikely to be nothing.

At the same time, in the last several weeks as I have
changed the way I eat, I have lost 10 pounds myself, and
I am more convinced than ever that what is in our food
is certainly an issue. Certain foods, regardless of
calories, seem to affect my weight more than others.
So it would certainly seem reasonable to me that if one
was able to alter a person's diet and preferences alone
with hypnosis, it is quite possible their weight could
be affected.

In the end, gastric bypass whether hypnotic or real
ultimately affects a symptom, and unless the cause is
addressed, it seems to me possible that there will
continue to be an issue. Interestingly, the surgery
is many more times expensive than the hypnosis and
likely, by its nature, to be many more times dangerous
as well.

As with anything, we have choices to make and the best
ones we make come with as many levels of understanding
as we can get. Learn what you can before you do what
you do and you will be more likely to succeed at what
you are trying to do.

If interested, below are the videos I have been
referring to. Have a great night!

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When Ignorance... | Video

is anything but bliss.

Tonight I went out to dinner. It is the first time
I have eaten food in the last two months that I
don't really know the contents or origin of, even
though I can guess, given what I have learned in
the last 60 days, or so.

It is no surprise to me tonight that I am not feeling
so great. But I am surprised because my mouth feels
"funny." I don't know if there is any correlation
between how it feels and what I ate, but it would
seem to me that there might be some.

I will go into more details in a future entry,
and explain a bit of what I have been finding out.
In the meantime, here is a video I HIGHLY SUGGEST
you watch - especially if you live in the US.

It will be a bummer if you take it at face value,
which might be all to easy to do. At the same
time, perhaps with knowledge comes other possibilities,
and other choices.

Watch it, and see what you think. Feel free to share
you thoughts, knowledge, and experiences below. If
you are willing, it can often be helpful for others.

Lingerie or...?

I was telling someone the other day that I
was looking at some wonderful lingerie, and
feeling a bit conflicted.

The reason for this conflict was that for
as much as I wanted to get some new lingerie
to tease my good boys with, I very much
wanted to get myself a bicycle.

I know it may seem like an odd thing to say.
But when one has resources, one can only get
what one can afford with those resources.

For as much as I would love to constantly
buy lingerie and create new and wonderful
opportunities for enjoyment for those who
enjoy my assets, it isn't always possible.

It just so happens this time a bicycle is
going to win out. The good news, however,
is that the person I was speaking with gave
me an interesting idea. When I told him of
my dilemma, he said he couldn't get me in
lingerie on a bicycle out of his head.

If I can manage to create an image of that
type (and I am certainly considering giving
it my best shot) perhaps it can be used as
a motivational tool for anyone who is looking
to be more active with working out...kinda
like the one I did with sneakers a while
back.

Unusual? Absolutely. Attractive? Oh, yes.
All me? Without any question. Desired?
Well you can answer that one.

Welcome to my world. :)

Have a great night!
 

Happy St Patrick's Day!